Kyra's

Hey there myself. I didn't expect to write this soon but I think needed you to know a thing or two. I'm writing this with mixed feelings at this moment so expect nonsense and inconsistencies.

I just went through a pretty big events in my life. Its something, you guess it- that cost a heart, again.
So you must be remember the girl that I mentioned in the last post? I'm sure you does.

Yeah, it didn't work out. I was confused back then because she left me hanging, no explanation. It's been like, 7 months since I talked to her and one day she texted me back. But to no surprise, she needed help. And I pretty sure you know how well you are back then. You helped her, no questions asked. Then you tweeted out something about how funny things are when people leave you behind and suddenly came back for something treating like nothing happened (read: selfish). I didn't expect this but she says she's sorry. You two talk over this and yeah, things are okay now between the two of you. I hope.

Tinder's been a place for you to try something new, at least when everything else not working. So there you are, on adventures. You met with a lot of people. But as what generic modern people would says: People come and go. I chuckled.

But first, let me highlights you few events that might interest you in the future. I will explains further later.

There's this one girl, you kind of have the vibe with her but it didn't work out. She just suddenly doesn't feel like proceeding with no exact explanations. Yes, the same thing that happen to you previously. (tl;dr: You cried tf)

Then, just recently you met with a girl. Kinda bright girl. You two go on a movie date (am I allowed to use this?) and you seems to like her a lot. Like a LOT I don't know why. You love how she talks about her obsessions with physics, movies, her dreams, and her life. You just love all about it. Pretty sure you're drunk. Thanks Pepsi Zero. But it didn't go well, Syauqi.

Things been going on with her life (hard) that she had to deal and you know what? She also did the same thing like other girls did to you. She leaves you hanging. Oh boy, you are so confused with everything that just happened and started to lose you mind again. I don't mean to embarrass you but you like a drunk man. You prayed like hell, you asked Him everything, and talks a lot about her but it still didn't go well. Now that I think about it, yeah... you really into her.

But at the time you wondered where did all of this go wrong? Did you make any mistakes even though you did the very best for them? Is this cursed of your life for all the sins you committed? You just don't know. (maybe, you just fucking boring)

It feels like its wrong to be kind? Like you had to be this bad so that people will notice you. Tf.
OK. Maybe I think a little too much here. And then, I sometimes feels like, people didn't notice me just because I'm the generic-nice-guy. Like literally the guy who don't even think about love and just a fucking nice guy. I don't know. I don't know anymore.

So, I have this late conversation with a friend of mine, quite special to me. She summarize me this:

1. Some of them take me for granted because I'm always there for them, and forgive them.
2. When they leave you hanging, they are afraid to be honest. To them, that's the best thing to do (read: selfish)

It hit me hard when she told me these two. Yes, I'm always want to be there for them. I just felt its the right thing to do. When they are in sadness and seeking for comfort, of course the right thing to do is you be available for them as soon as possible. In this case, it sounds like I'm expecting a return. I wanted my feelings to be responded because I legit care about them and will do everything for them. But it didn't get responded. Perhaps because I'm not the one? (or you just fucking lonely and rush into things loool)

Of course, I'm sad that my feelings didn't get responded but for them to leave me? Why?
I couldn't brain why you had to leave. At least, do talk. But yeah, the talk never happens.

I don't know, Syauqi. I don't know. My life has always been putting others first before myself. I never had any regrets putting them first before me. This even include my friends.
But they always put themselves before you especially when they had a rough time dealing with their problems.

And then you can clearly see (as what modern people would say) that I'm the fault here. I'm not selfish. I only care about others, not myself. Yeah, fuck me.

But it didn't bother me one bit. It is my choice that I choose to put others before me and I don't have any problem with it. It just feel a little sad that people only think for themselves most of the time as if others don't really matter. They acted so strong that they don't need anyone else. They wanted to moved on that they had to cast away others for a bullshit refresh start.

Sigh. I'm sorry for all this rants, myself, everyone. I just hate how things are right now because in logical sense- you can just talk over this. But it didn't happen.

I still hope one day we can talk over this and see where we go from here. But is it gonna be worth it?
Do you appreciate me still?
Do you care about me still?
Do you love me? Fuck. (i'm still look forward thoooooooooooo)

Eugh I hate how complicated myself is.
1. Always think about others first
2. Can't selfish
3. Forgiving
4. Always here
5. Believes there always good in someone
6. Never say no to help
7. Emotional when dealing with feelings
8. Will accept things as they are soon enough
9. yet, hopeful. (always believe that we can start over because i'm the generic-kind guy)

Perhaps, I'm literally just a RnR.

Hey, its been a while. How long was it, 4 years?
Yes, 4 years I hadn't update anything. I used to love writing, conveying my feelings and thoughts here. I stopped writing because I couldn't write anything, its been a tough life.

But now that I'm here, I guess I will give a little heads up so that my future self can look back in case of emergency.

2015 been a happiest year of my life. I couldn't believed that there's someone looking at me. I thought, I'm a mere loser, lonely boy (yes, must admit it).

I think I should give it a try.
I'm happy, happy. I'd get to know someone, and to love. I felt that I am riding on a roller coaster, getting higher, and higher. Yes, as you expect I will go down at high speed and my God, it feels heavy.

I have given my best, the best that I could but things doesn't go as I expected. I'm having a hard time. I didn't complain, but I made mistakes. Then, I blamed myself for it.

2016 has its ups and down. I had tons of fun with the event, and competition joined. And yeah, the story doesn't stop there. I still blamed myself for failing to get things better.
This year, I went for a 8 months internship. Much fun, but with more sadness.

I felt like I kept failing with the things I have been working so hard. Where did it go wrong? I asked.
Maybe, I didn't try hard enough.
I had reached my limit, I am broken.
At this point, I had realized that I didn't keep in check of my feelings. I was working so hard that I ruined everything. That's what I thought.

2017, the year of truth. We know the truth.
The parasite that have been ruining the relationship, and everything. It was too late, I guess?
I think it can still be forgiven. (Typical me)

(But the "demon" inside of me didn't want me to forgive, so it made me the person I am today with no shit to give)

The relationship is now, dead. I guess?
Ended.
We came upon conclusion, that it should be ended. But hey, we are still friends. We really are. (Close friend 🙃)
Now, the single path have been divided into two. I am going the other way.
I thought, I can moved on from the ending. No, I couldn't.

I am seeing myself (as of the date) getting desperate.
I fucked things up. (final year projects, life, everything)
I am getting worse, day by day.
I want to start over my life again, I really do.
Please, help me.

I need to get my shit together.
I need to be strong.
I only have me.
Me.

I stopped talking.
But life is still the same.
Everyone do their own shit. I'm with my shit, sins.

Its almost at the end of 2017, the end of my degree. I should be happy, right?
Yes, a little happy. But I left with a lot of sadness.
I made mistakes with my project, I cried in my room after the viva.
Silly thing is, I wrote a note on a paper "Do not disturb me" and stuck it at the back of my head.
And I cried. I want you to remember that. Please do not forget that day.
Please.

I left UTP. Everyone too.
But the memories are still there. Warm.

2018, everybody. I told Ekrahm, 2018 is Syauqi that is willing to take risk, and make his own decision. In other word, me that can get hold of shit together, alone.
Its been tough, yeah it is.
I cried here and there. I wandered here and there seeking peace.
(Praying and everything I did, but of course nothing happen if you didn't do anything)

Yeah, I'm still normal, I had feelings. To be accurate, inclination to someone.
I think you can say I had to get back to zero?
A long route it is.

Crush is fun, tons of fun.
And it gives sadness too.
I cried. What a weenie.

I thought I am losing my sanity. I didn't.
Still the same me, seeking peace.
Maybe you asked, why didn't you start over the last relationship?
I couldn't. Have my reasons.
I am sure, you still remember it by today.

And I hope you still doing your part. 🙃

Today (the date), I dated with myself. I bought myself a snackers box, upsized drink.
KFC at my place has the best view ever, and it inspired me something.

I realized what went wrong.
I didn't made peace with myself. (Quoted this from Overwatch game, silly it may sound but its true in my perspective)

Peace with myself, is what I should be looking for.
I didn't get to know myself. I even forgot what is my strengths and weakness.
What are my hobbies?
What I want to do in future?
I don't know. I stopped thinking about that.

In short, I stopped loving myself.
I want to know myself more.
I want to know what I am capable of.
I want to know how far I can go.

I hope, in future you still love yourself.
See what you can do and what you can't do.
And improve.
I know you can do it.
Have faith in yourself.
Everybody have been saying these to you, but back then you didn't tell yourself that.

Let's make peace, you?

That's pretty much what had happened. There's more but I don't think I could write this longer.

I made new friends too.
There's a girl that I talked a lot with, went on adventures. We pretty much discussed our shit together. I had my feelings on her, but there's nothing I can do much about it. But I am happy that she is happy with what she have. My prayers will be always on you, get your shit together girl 🙃
Keep in touch.

Today, I am onto someone. I am sure I will likely fail. But I don't want any regrets. I am sure will give you heads up when the time comes.

That's it for now. Don't messed things up, you.

Assalamualaikum >w<
I'm back desuuuu

Dah berhabuk blog aku ni *tiup tiup*
Tak tahu nak tulis apa .__. Sejak tahun lepas rasa macam hilang semangat for almost everything, especially my study. I don't know, bila nak buka buku, dah baca tu baca. Tapi tak faham T. T tak rasa nak buat itu, tak rasa nak buat ini. I feel hopeless, tak terdaya and a lot stuffs happened.

Then i started to think, aku dah mula ke jalan yg salah. Why is this happening? Why?
Oh, baru aku sedar, I just keep telling lying to myself .__. I didn't being honest, instead keeping it to myself and just doing nothing.

Heh, it feels like everything is over. Sampai tahap tak tahu nak manage masa, tak tahu nak jaga diri, tak tahu.. nak study :<
Kalau bole, aku nak master semua subjek ee! master in understanding la :p calculation tu entah laa...
Kalau bole, aku nak score, nak markah tinggi tinggi.
Then people will say "WHY DONT YOU START?"

Gambling battle. Either you are rightly or wrongly doing things

No, you don't understand, you don't understand for some people who are barely be able to move. Some need a push, not everyone have pure ability to be on their own.
.__. selalu sgt ada dkt worst place, (maybe ada je senang cuma tak sedar kot xD)
You know, i just getting really really worst. People might say "move on bro, sudah sudah la tu, WOKE UP"
Im..im really taking my time for that. Im not good with most things you know :< *mcm budak budak*

But somehow, bila dah makin tua, kita kena buat decision sendiri, kena berdiri atas sendiri. And bila makin tua, people will less care about you, because they know that you are getting stronger. Hahahahaha, entahlah.. for someone like me, i need a push, kalau tak terperuk la aku dkt situ T. T" but, yeah i realize the reality, people don't care if you sit there doing nothing. They will keep moving forward, most of it like "clever with clever", "stupid with nothing". Blame all you can, but this is the reality! Its not like the clever will find you "come lemme help you". Dari zaman dulu dulu lagi, if you want to learn something, go get it. It wont come up to you. Anak raja pun pegi cari ilmu o. o"

Pesan buat diri,
Kalau impikan nak jadi kaya, work hard for it.
Kalau impikan nak jadi suami yg "usable", work hard for it
Kalau impikan nak jadi hmm, yeah the khalifah, work very very hard for it

^. ^" 2 tahun and hundreds years left. Rindukan diri yg dulu yg kuat, study, and boleh buat mcm mcm.
Yang sekarang ni terlalu takut pada realiti.. takut yg amat. Takut ditinggalkan, takut dikhianati, takut di tidak pedulikan, takut friendzoned, takut.. everything. So dia hanya duduk dalam bilik dgn laptop, tablet, dan few stuffs.
.___." hehe, hopeless syauqi is hopeless. I can't even ask someone to have their time for my problem sharing. Because they were too busy and i'm little scared :'v
And i will just slowly find 1 millions of ways to get myself on the track. *i hope i'd find one*
For now, JUST DEAL WITH IT

Ok, .__. sambung study balik.
Nanti datang balik lepas blog ni berhabuk lagi hahahaha.

kyaaa! i always dream of being like this. to save someone with all i got >w<

*guys, i need a reality slap*
sayounara desu~
pena ditutup.

I love friends, special friends, and best friends. *and enemies*

Friends also, a cure. And the poison in the same time regardless how special could they be.
The poison comes when both perspective do not alike, and overthinking it is.

I could be the best friend ever to you, but you do?
Inversely, I can be someone that ignores everything. But, the fact that I'm okay to be hurted again and again makes I don't stop ignore everything. A second of my friends' pain counted, cared.

And this useless of me, when tired of everything, will start distancing from everything too when they did.
So that, they could finally forgot me every single second as different as I remember them at worst few months once.

Do I too cruel for this?
I don't know, feeling guilty of hurting others while being hurt and fine with it.

Most importantly, why I always talked about this while others doesn't?
Its going to be fine if I just ignore and live with it. But it makes me not "Syauqi". I'm a guy who cared about small stuffs like feelings, thoughts, opinions, objections and tears.
And this attitude or habit I had, doesn't come from any of my parents. Its totally vice versa, they only do the right thing. But I'm okay bearing that "pain" and live with the right thing. Yet, I still keep complaining about it once in a while. Geez.

.w. I hope, a little understanding from them.
Forgive me for my foolishness, forgive me for my childishness, and forgive me for every small thing that I complaint.

In the end, I just get that "People will come, and go. Once they go, they go forever."

Yeah, I'm working very hard to understand people, and to overcome my overthinking problem. ^^
Pray for me!!! So, for now I'll have just to leave everything behind and start over again.
Live, die, repeat. *ecehh :p *

And to you, ^^" I'm waiting for you to save me.

I'm back, with another sad story. Wow, these ups and downs sure challenging.
Ada kala aku boleh tempuhi, ada masa aku kena pijak cukup cukup. And tanpa hentilah aku berdoa agar semuanya dipermudahkan.

So, when I'm 16, I'd just realize that I actually being fine to everything. Lost, fall, stabbed, accused, failed, everything. No matter how much I have been hurt, in the end I'd keep doing the same thing like "Its okay, I fix it for you!" "No worry, all smooth~" "Are you okay? Lemme waste my time for you". Its fun to do this thing, I even felt proud of it! *yes i am! ^^*

But, it feel bad, when you really have to face this one thing. That everyone gonna leave you, even painful, forever.

I thought, I could friends with them forever, spending my time, treating them a bit lower than my family. Despite how much I love them, in the end, they have to leave me, forever. What do they meant by forever?
When they almost couldn't see my existence, or remember anything about me.

Yeah! I know maybe they were busy, busy and busy with here and there. But, when looking them almost like ignoring me, it feels... wth.

And oh yeah, some did call me "hey, im your best friend!" "im here for you!". .__. but they looks like they left me behind. Looks like, but it is. Why? Am I bad to you? Did I doing any bad thing to you? :(

To think of it, no one actually care ^^" and I know I overthinking about this while no one really care! Haha.
Deep inside my heart, I really wish there someone who could hear, bear my babling, and even my fantasy. Or simply someone like me... hahaha LOL. no way, no one even can withstand being with such ppl like me. LOL.

You know, I cried a lot with such silly thing like this =3= such childish haha.
Haih haih, enough of that. As much as I complaint, in the end no one care. And I know within myself that I need to face the pain, fall, failure, everything all by myself. ^^"
Well, someday Allah would give you someone that will bear these pain with you right? Just that, I need to find that person. Who could it be? Haha, better to get myself even better before I thought of it. :p

Okay then, I'm gonna work hard to find myself!

And in the end, my name define who I am, I'm oki, whom okay with everything. :'v
Er, no one care right? xD

Hey, I'm 19th~
Alhamdulillah, still single sihat dan kuat. :V
My wish?
Gonna walk through hell, smoothly~
Jokes.

So, degree life. Always hard as usual, well nothing easy isn't?
And then,

I wonder, how science relates in your life?
I tried to apply a very simple principle that I learned through circuit theory, and ordinary differential equation; Superposition Principle.
To find a values in a specific source you need to disable the others source in the circuit.

When I took a time to think about it, "Hey, it does make sense!"
So I began to draw circles in a paper, and in each circle I wrote things that I wished;

For instance,
Study, wealth, love.

To study, I need to have wealth. What wealth?
Knowledge, its your precious wealth if you think about it.
With this, you can move forward, as further you want until you reach the dream and hopes you wished for.

You need also love. What love?
Having a girlfriend?
Having a "going-to-be wife"?
^From observations that I had during my past, and present, both doesn't make sense for certain people. Unless you are madly in love, or both love each other. Though, it doesn't make sense with your false intention for your future.

Love your parents, Allah, and yourself.
Because if you cared about yourself, you won't stop studying until you had what you want.
Because if you cared about Allah, you won't stop studying with niah for Him.
Because if you cared about your parents and family, you won't stop studying to repay their hardwork to help you reach your future.
Make sense isn't?

So, I pick wealth. I close the wealth, and look at the other two; Love and Study.
Wealth and Study?
Seems the same if you look it as Study and Wealth.
But, in different perspective, wealth you wished to have in few years time should be in halal way, I mean no bribery practice@etc in your work. So, study well and get a good grades with full understanding so you won't put yourself into these bad habits. Like, cheating in exam, making false report for your work presentation.

Wealth and love?
^Quite not agree wealth is related to love, because I think wealth doesn't give you love and happiness alone. Because wealth itself is temporary. But, it could possibly have love with it if you spent your wealth in Allah's path entire your life like sadaqah, zakat, and lots lots more.

So, the very last instance which is Love.
Closing it and have study and wealth together.
So how do you love while you are studying?
Basically not having girlfriends or searching future wife.
But if you recalled the reason why you are here, is you said that: (Some of us)
"I came here because I want to help my parents, repay them later"
"I came here because I want to study while tarbiyah"
"I came here because I want to get rich because I work hard for it"
"I came here because to find wife candidates"
Whoops, pardon my slippery mouth. Hahaha

And, lastly Love and Wealth.
^So... *brainstroming*
Haa!
When you love something, you gonna precious something as precious as your wealth. ._.
*make sense...err isn't?*
You love your parents then you would never hurt them,
You love your future, then you would never spoil them,
You love your friends then you would never leave them suddenly (almost being picky),
And You love Allah then think twice, or triple before you commit a sin!

19 years had taught me a lot, more than needed.
And, to think of it, I had already grown up to make my own decision. Also, to have my own stand.
Because, during my years in past, hatred, lust, greed, envy and pride will destroy your future in instant.
And, it taught me that, most of thing in life you need is yourself. Friends are temporary, they come and they go. It hurt, its hurt in the way that they could kill all my hopes and dreams. But, in the end of the day, you know you need for most things is yourself.

Thanks, thank you to my very friends that always give their support for me.
Discussed about love stuffs, blabering about people's stupidity, and fighting over your birthday.

And, some of them:
Distancing themselves from me for no reason that I could think of it,
Forgotten about my existence,
They came back, with a reason that we need each other,
and the very little people who stayed, stood beside me, despite being doing other stuffs, they never forget and hurt this less durable heart of mine.

Sometimes(or most of the times) I wonder why people so suddenly become like that, it hurts me alot.
But, a lesson is a strength for you in the future isn't?
So, don't give a damn about it since they didn't even give one too.
Just that, sorry if ever you left me because of my stupidest act ever. Hope we could have a make up later in the future.

Yup, its the end of my sad life the story.
I had grown up to make my own decision, so don't bother others.
May Allah turns the hardship, happiness that I had into something that I could be grateful with.

Road to 20 coming soon!
With a better plan for my marriage my future.
InshaAllah :)

            Pencapaian pertama UPSR 2007; boleh dikatakan titik permulaaan kepada sebuah perjuangan untuk masa depan.
Kecil-kecil lagi katanya nak jadi seorang doktor, guru, usahawan, tidak pun seorang polis yang menegakkan keadilan.

           Tapi pemikiran kita tidaklah seperti seorang yang sudah bekerja, seorang yang genius.
Tidak matang lagi berfikir, cuma ingin menjadi sesuatu sebab merasakan kita ni boleh jadi macam mereka suatu hari nanti.

           Alam sekolah menengah (rendah) mendedahkan kita dengan kewujudan huruf dalam sistem nombor, sejarah negara yang dahulunya sukar, kini membangun, bentuk geografi di dunia dan khususnya Malaysia, serta sistem penulisan dan pertuturan dalam dua bahasa.

Ada antara kita yang mula garu kepala "Apa kejadahnya* ini?"
Ada antara kita juga tidaklah ambil peduli akan ilmu-ilmu sebab terlalu berseronok dalam dunia hiburan, dunia cinta yang "indah". </3

           Namun, hari hari perjuangan perlu diteruskan. Dan bila mana umumnya keputusan PMR, ada yang gugur dimedan perang, ada juga yang memperoleh pencapaian yang diharapkan. "Alhamdulillah", bisik hati kita. Biarpun ada yang gugur, mereka masih melihat disitu wujudnya harapan utk mereka berjaya. Dan mulalah meninggalkan semuanya yang melalaikan, memutuskan "cinta", dan mendekatkan diri pada yang Esa.

Hari demi hari, semakin mencabarnya menuntut ilmu. Didedahnya kebolehan nombor dan huruf utk diintegrasi dan dibezakan, pemahaman tentang sel dan organ manusia serta sekitarnya, dan hukum hukum fizik dan kimia yang menjangkaui imaginasi.

Tapi alhamdulillah, ada antara kita berjaya mengharunginya, ada yang hampir, dan ada yang jauh dari harapan.
Dan bila berakhirnya dunia sekolah menengah ini, kita mula memikirkan tentang masa depan kita dgn lebih jauh.

"Lepas ni nak ambil apa ya?"
"Kahwin awal or lambat?"
"Mungkin aku patut berhenti teruskan dan bekerja"
"Nak buat apa lepas ni"

Banyak tawaran yang datang sebaik sahaja keputusan SPM diumumkan; ada peluang nak ke negara itu, negara ini. Ada juga sekurang-kurangnya dapat masuk universiti tempatan dan swasta.
Tapi ada antara kita tak mampu merancang masa depan kita dgn baik.

Abu kata "Masuk UTP lah, best, ada peluang kerja tinggi nanti"
Ali kata "3 pilihan yang aku mintak haritu Chemical, Mechanical, Electrical, harap dapat lah chemical >.< "
Aini kata "Aku takut aku tak dapat tawaran lain dah, jadi masuk jelah UTP"
Arina kata "Haritu aku mintak fast track SPC nak pergi luar negara, tapi dapat UTP"

Jadi, dijadikan ceritanya;
Abu masuk UTP sbb peluang kerja yang luas.
Ali berharap dapat Chemical, tapi ditawarnya pilihan ke-3, Electrical. Tanpa fikir panjang, masuk shj UTP.
Aini masuk UTP, baru nak cari bidang apa yang sesuai dgnnya.
Arina gagal memastikan tempatnya utk ke luar negara, tanpa memikirkan alternatif lain utk masa depannya, masuklah dia ke UTP.

Mendapat kenalan baru, didedahkan dengan budaya kerja, pengenalan kepada nombor-nombor dan teori yang kompleks.
Pada awalnya sangat sukar, tapi kita mereasakan diri kita perlu "survive" dalam foundation.

Alhamdulillah, "survived" katanya.
Foundation dilalui dgn keputusan yang cukup cukup makan. Tidak terlalu tinggi, tidak terlalu rendah.

Yay, mulalah tahun pertama saya disini.
Minggu minggu pertama bukanlah seperti minggu pertama di sekolah rendah, menengah. Awal awal lagi dah kena belajar apa itu Ordinary Differential Equation(ODE), apakah itu Teori Litar (CT), Lukisan kejuruteraan (ED) tak juga Structured Programming(SPI,SPD).
Masih gagah utk berdiri, memahami apa yang kita perlu belajar sepanjang semester ini.
Bila result keluar, "ARGHHHHH"
"Aku tak faham langsung"
"Stress, soalan putar belit"

Lama kelamaan kita mula mempersoalkan diri kita..
"Apakah jalan yang aku ambil ini betul?"

Dulu aku cakap nak jadi seorang doktor, nak jadi seorang polis, guru.. tapi kenapa aku akhirnya tersangkut dalam bidang yang aku sendiri tidak tahu?

Dalam sibuk melayan realiti dunia, kita kadang kadang terlepas pandang terhadap perancangan masa depan kita. Bila rasa susahnya menuntut ilmu, mulalah terfikir nak keluar kursus, keluar universiti, merancang utk ulang semester.

Siapa yang perlu disalahkan?
Aku, kau, dia, mereka, kita?

Apa pun, masa berlalu tanpa berpatah balik sedikit pun.
Apa boleh buat dalam keadaan macam ni?

Ok, mari berdiskusi dan cari beberapa idea;

1. Keluar universiti dan bekerja?
2. Keluar kursus dan masuk kursus lain?
3. Rambo sahaja!

Adakah dengan keluar universiti dan terus bekerja kita boleh hidup dgn sikap kita malas dan tidak mahu berusaha sewaktu dalam semester pertama?

Adakah tukar kursus dengan kursus pilihan lain boleh menyelesaikan masalah?
Kita seakan-akan cuba lari dari masalah dan buat masalah lain.

Rambo saja! Ambil masa utk belajar balik, perbetulkan sikap kita, kejar balik silibus. Belum terlambat utk buat sesuatu, selagi belum gagal usahalah. Gagal bukan pilihan.

Secara umumnya, dunia belajar selepas sekolah bukanlah dunia sekadar petik jari sahaja semua boleh.
Dunia sekarang memerlukan kita utk memahami apa yang kita belajar, bukan sekadar suap masuk kepala dan muntah sewaktu exam. Itu boleh bentuk diri kita seorang fresh undegraduate yang tidak berkualiti. Malah mudah dilabel "tidak laku" di mata syarikat syarikat besar/membangun.
Tidak kiralah tukar kursus berapa byk, kalau diri takde minat dan usaha utk belajar memang sia-sialah.

Bila kita ada masalah nak belajar, kita cari akar masalah kita;
Cara belajar kita betul tak?
Pengurusan masa kita betul tak?
Faham tak apa yang kita cuba belajar?
Adakah pelajaran diutamakan?

Oh, aku pun tidaklah 100% buat apa yang aku cuba sampaikan. Tapi, buat atau tak, benda ni betul.
Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih kata orang tua.

Orang lain tak boleh tolong kita utk kejar masa depan melainkan hanyalah utk beri sokongan dan nasihat.
Ada masalah kongsi dan selesaikan bersama. Kawan ada, kaunselor bertauliah@tak bertauliah pun ada.
Tanyalah selagi boleh tanya.

Ehem, dkt atas tu semestinyalah. Dia dengar, dan dia akan makbulkan.

Al Mu'min, Ayat 60:

Maksudnya: "Dan berfirman Tuhanmu "Memohonlah (mendoalah) kepada-Ku, Aku pasti perkenankan permohonan (doa) mu itu."

Semestinya apa yang di beri tu adalah terbaik buat kita.
Jangan cepat putus harapan, jangan cepat berhenti.
Kita masih jauh lagi dari garisan penamat. Lari, Lari, Lari!!!

Jalan ke penamat itu sungguhlah lurus kenapa berjalan pusing sana pusing sini? :)

*heavily breathing*
"Shouldn't I stop fighting, pain is temporary, glory is forever" - slogan silat tempat aku lol

Keep running, grand prize awaits you.

Aku masih disini, menolak kawan kawan aku utk bergerak. Takkanlah aku seorang shj yg berjalan.
You have my very support.

-. - O.K, cukup berleter dan cakap seorang diri. Selamat merancang masa depan anda!
Buat junior, buat keputusan elok elok.

Lama tak post gambar, comel </3 hahahaha

Pena ditutup. Assalamualaikum! </3