I'm back, with another sad story. Wow, these ups and downs sure challenging.
Ada kala aku boleh tempuhi, ada masa aku kena pijak cukup cukup. And tanpa hentilah aku berdoa agar semuanya dipermudahkan.

So, when I'm 16, I'd just realize that I actually being fine to everything. Lost, fall, stabbed, accused, failed, everything. No matter how much I have been hurt, in the end I'd keep doing the same thing like "Its okay, I fix it for you!" "No worry, all smooth~" "Are you okay? Lemme waste my time for you". Its fun to do this thing, I even felt proud of it! *yes i am! ^^*

But, it feel bad, when you really have to face this one thing. That everyone gonna leave you, even painful, forever.

I thought, I could friends with them forever, spending my time, treating them a bit lower than my family. Despite how much I love them, in the end, they have to leave me, forever. What do they meant by forever?
When they almost couldn't see my existence, or remember anything about me.

Yeah! I know maybe they were busy, busy and busy with here and there. But, when looking them almost like ignoring me, it feels... wth.

And oh yeah, some did call me "hey, im your best friend!" "im here for you!". .__. but they looks like they left me behind. Looks like, but it is. Why? Am I bad to you? Did I doing any bad thing to you? :(

To think of it, no one actually care ^^" and I know I overthinking about this while no one really care! Haha.
Deep inside my heart, I really wish there someone who could hear, bear my babling, and even my fantasy. Or simply someone like me... hahaha LOL. no way, no one even can withstand being with such ppl like me. LOL.

You know, I cried a lot with such silly thing like this =3= such childish haha.
Haih haih, enough of that. As much as I complaint, in the end no one care. And I know within myself that I need to face the pain, fall, failure, everything all by myself. ^^"
Well, someday Allah would give you someone that will bear these pain with you right? Just that, I need to find that person. Who could it be? Haha, better to get myself even better before I thought of it. :p

Okay then, I'm gonna work hard to find myself!

And in the end, my name define who I am, I'm oki, whom okay with everything. :'v
Er, no one care right? xD