Hey, I'm 19th~
Alhamdulillah, still single sihat dan kuat. :V
My wish?
Gonna walk through hell, smoothly~
Jokes.

So, degree life. Always hard as usual, well nothing easy isn't?
And then,

I wonder, how science relates in your life?
I tried to apply a very simple principle that I learned through circuit theory, and ordinary differential equation; Superposition Principle.
To find a values in a specific source you need to disable the others source in the circuit.

When I took a time to think about it, "Hey, it does make sense!"
So I began to draw circles in a paper, and in each circle I wrote things that I wished;

For instance,
Study, wealth, love.

To study, I need to have wealth. What wealth?
Knowledge, its your precious wealth if you think about it.
With this, you can move forward, as further you want until you reach the dream and hopes you wished for.

You need also love. What love?
Having a girlfriend?
Having a "going-to-be wife"?
^From observations that I had during my past, and present, both doesn't make sense for certain people. Unless you are madly in love, or both love each other. Though, it doesn't make sense with your false intention for your future.

Love your parents, Allah, and yourself.
Because if you cared about yourself, you won't stop studying until you had what you want.
Because if you cared about Allah, you won't stop studying with niah for Him.
Because if you cared about your parents and family, you won't stop studying to repay their hardwork to help you reach your future.
Make sense isn't?

So, I pick wealth. I close the wealth, and look at the other two; Love and Study.
Wealth and Study?
Seems the same if you look it as Study and Wealth.
But, in different perspective, wealth you wished to have in few years time should be in halal way, I mean no bribery practice@etc in your work. So, study well and get a good grades with full understanding so you won't put yourself into these bad habits. Like, cheating in exam, making false report for your work presentation.

Wealth and love?
^Quite not agree wealth is related to love, because I think wealth doesn't give you love and happiness alone. Because wealth itself is temporary. But, it could possibly have love with it if you spent your wealth in Allah's path entire your life like sadaqah, zakat, and lots lots more.

So, the very last instance which is Love.
Closing it and have study and wealth together.
So how do you love while you are studying?
Basically not having girlfriends or searching future wife.
But if you recalled the reason why you are here, is you said that: (Some of us)
"I came here because I want to help my parents, repay them later"
"I came here because I want to study while tarbiyah"
"I came here because I want to get rich because I work hard for it"
"I came here because to find wife candidates"
Whoops, pardon my slippery mouth. Hahaha

And, lastly Love and Wealth.
^So... *brainstroming*
Haa!
When you love something, you gonna precious something as precious as your wealth. ._.
*make sense...err isn't?*
You love your parents then you would never hurt them,
You love your future, then you would never spoil them,
You love your friends then you would never leave them suddenly (almost being picky),
And You love Allah then think twice, or triple before you commit a sin!

19 years had taught me a lot, more than needed.
And, to think of it, I had already grown up to make my own decision. Also, to have my own stand.
Because, during my years in past, hatred, lust, greed, envy and pride will destroy your future in instant.
And, it taught me that, most of thing in life you need is yourself. Friends are temporary, they come and they go. It hurt, its hurt in the way that they could kill all my hopes and dreams. But, in the end of the day, you know you need for most things is yourself.

Thanks, thank you to my very friends that always give their support for me.
Discussed about love stuffs, blabering about people's stupidity, and fighting over your birthday.

And, some of them:
Distancing themselves from me for no reason that I could think of it,
Forgotten about my existence,
They came back, with a reason that we need each other,
and the very little people who stayed, stood beside me, despite being doing other stuffs, they never forget and hurt this less durable heart of mine.

Sometimes(or most of the times) I wonder why people so suddenly become like that, it hurts me alot.
But, a lesson is a strength for you in the future isn't?
So, don't give a damn about it since they didn't even give one too.
Just that, sorry if ever you left me because of my stupidest act ever. Hope we could have a make up later in the future.

Yup, its the end of my sad life the story.
I had grown up to make my own decision, so don't bother others.
May Allah turns the hardship, happiness that I had into something that I could be grateful with.

Road to 20 coming soon!
With a better plan for my marriage my future.
InshaAllah :)