Hey, I'm 19th~
Alhamdulillah, still single sihat dan kuat. :V
My wish?
Gonna walk through hell, smoothly~
Jokes.
So, degree life. Always hard as usual, well nothing easy isn't?
And then,
I wonder, how science relates in your life?
I tried to apply a very simple principle that I learned through circuit theory, and ordinary differential equation; Superposition Principle.
To find a values in a specific source you need to disable the others source in the circuit.
When I took a time to think about it, "Hey, it does make sense!"
So I began to draw circles in a paper, and in each circle I wrote things that I wished;
For instance,
Study, wealth, love.
To study, I need to have wealth. What wealth?
Knowledge, its your precious wealth if you think about it.
With this, you can move forward, as further you want until you reach the dream and hopes you wished for.
You need also love. What love?
Having a girlfriend?
Having a "going-to-be wife"?
^From observations that I had during my past, and present, both doesn't make sense for certain people. Unless you are madly in love, or both love each other. Though, it doesn't make sense with your false intention for your future.
Love your parents, Allah, and yourself.
Because if you cared about yourself, you won't stop studying until you had what you want.
Because if you cared about Allah, you won't stop studying with niah for Him.
Because if you cared about your parents and family, you won't stop studying to repay their hardwork to help you reach your future.
Make sense isn't?
So, I pick wealth. I close the wealth, and look at the other two; Love and Study.
Wealth and Study?
Seems the same if you look it as Study and Wealth.
But, in different perspective, wealth you wished to have in few years time should be in halal way, I mean no bribery practice@etc in your work. So, study well and get a good grades with full understanding so you won't put yourself into these bad habits. Like, cheating in exam, making false report for your work presentation.
Wealth and love?
^Quite not agree wealth is related to love, because I think wealth doesn't give you love and happiness alone. Because wealth itself is temporary. But, it could possibly have love with it if you spent your wealth in Allah's path entire your life like sadaqah, zakat, and lots lots more.
So, the very last instance which is Love.
Closing it and have study and wealth together.
So how do you love while you are studying?
Basically not having girlfriends or searching future wife.
But if you recalled the reason why you are here, is you said that: (Some of us)
"I came here because I want to help my parents, repay them later"
"I came here because I want to study while tarbiyah"
"I came here because I want to get rich because I work hard for it"
"I came here because to find wife candidates"
Whoops, pardon my slippery mouth. Hahaha
And, lastly Love and Wealth.
^So... *brainstroming*
Haa!
When you love something, you gonna precious something as precious as your wealth. ._.
*make sense...err isn't?*
You love your parents then you would never hurt them,
You love your future, then you would never spoil them,
You love your friends then you would never leave them suddenly (almost being picky),
And You love Allah then think twice, or triple before you commit a sin!
19 years had taught me a lot, more than needed.
And, to think of it, I had already grown up to make my own decision. Also, to have my own stand.
Because, during my years in past, hatred, lust, greed, envy and pride will destroy your future in instant.
And, it taught me that, most of thing in life you need is yourself. Friends are temporary, they come and they go. It hurt, its hurt in the way that they could kill all my hopes and dreams. But, in the end of the day, you know you need for most things is yourself.
Thanks, thank you to my very friends that always give their support for me.
Discussed about love stuffs, blabering about people's stupidity, and fighting over your birthday.
And, some of them:
Distancing themselves from me for no reason that I could think of it,
Forgotten about my existence,
They came back, with a reason that we need each other,
and the very little people who stayed, stood beside me, despite being doing other stuffs, they never forget and hurt this less durable heart of mine.
Sometimes(or most of the times) I wonder why people so suddenly become like that, it hurts me alot.
But, a lesson is a strength for you in the future isn't?
So, don't give a damn about it since they didn't even give one too.
Just that, sorry if ever you left me because of my stupidest act ever. Hope we could have a make up later in the future.
Yup, its the end of my sad life the story.
I had grown up to make my own decision, so don't bother others.
May Allah turns the hardship, happiness that I had into something that I could be grateful with.
Road to 20 coming soon!
With a better plan for my marriage my future.
InshaAllah :)
Pencapaian pertama UPSR 2007; boleh dikatakan titik permulaaan kepada sebuah perjuangan untuk masa depan.
Kecil-kecil lagi katanya nak jadi seorang doktor, guru, usahawan, tidak pun seorang polis yang menegakkan keadilan.
Tapi pemikiran kita tidaklah seperti seorang yang sudah bekerja, seorang yang genius.
Tidak matang lagi berfikir, cuma ingin menjadi sesuatu sebab merasakan kita ni boleh jadi macam mereka suatu hari nanti.
Alam sekolah menengah (rendah) mendedahkan kita dengan kewujudan huruf dalam sistem nombor, sejarah negara yang dahulunya sukar, kini membangun, bentuk geografi di dunia dan khususnya Malaysia, serta sistem penulisan dan pertuturan dalam dua bahasa.
Ada antara kita yang mula garu kepala "Apa kejadahnya* ini?"
Ada antara kita juga tidaklah ambil peduli akan ilmu-ilmu sebab terlalu berseronok dalam dunia hiburan, dunia cinta yang "indah". </3
Namun, hari hari perjuangan perlu diteruskan. Dan bila mana umumnya keputusan PMR, ada yang gugur dimedan perang, ada juga yang memperoleh pencapaian yang diharapkan. "Alhamdulillah", bisik hati kita. Biarpun ada yang gugur, mereka masih melihat disitu wujudnya harapan utk mereka berjaya. Dan mulalah meninggalkan semuanya yang melalaikan, memutuskan "cinta", dan mendekatkan diri pada yang Esa.
Hari demi hari, semakin mencabarnya menuntut ilmu. Didedahnya kebolehan nombor dan huruf utk diintegrasi dan dibezakan, pemahaman tentang sel dan organ manusia serta sekitarnya, dan hukum hukum fizik dan kimia yang menjangkaui imaginasi.
Tapi alhamdulillah, ada antara kita berjaya mengharunginya, ada yang hampir, dan ada yang jauh dari harapan.
Dan bila berakhirnya dunia sekolah menengah ini, kita mula memikirkan tentang masa depan kita dgn lebih jauh.
"Lepas ni nak ambil apa ya?"
"Kahwin awal or lambat?"
"Mungkin aku patut berhenti teruskan dan bekerja"
"Nak buat apa lepas ni"
Banyak tawaran yang datang sebaik sahaja keputusan SPM diumumkan; ada peluang nak ke negara itu, negara ini. Ada juga sekurang-kurangnya dapat masuk universiti tempatan dan swasta.
Tapi ada antara kita tak mampu merancang masa depan kita dgn baik.
Abu kata "Masuk UTP lah, best, ada peluang kerja tinggi nanti"
Ali kata "3 pilihan yang aku mintak haritu Chemical, Mechanical, Electrical, harap dapat lah chemical >.< "
Aini kata "Aku takut aku tak dapat tawaran lain dah, jadi masuk jelah UTP"
Arina kata "Haritu aku mintak fast track SPC nak pergi luar negara, tapi dapat UTP"
Jadi, dijadikan ceritanya;
Abu masuk UTP sbb peluang kerja yang luas.
Ali berharap dapat Chemical, tapi ditawarnya pilihan ke-3, Electrical. Tanpa fikir panjang, masuk shj UTP.
Aini masuk UTP, baru nak cari bidang apa yang sesuai dgnnya.
Arina gagal memastikan tempatnya utk ke luar negara, tanpa memikirkan alternatif lain utk masa depannya, masuklah dia ke UTP.
Mendapat kenalan baru, didedahkan dengan budaya kerja, pengenalan kepada nombor-nombor dan teori yang kompleks.
Pada awalnya sangat sukar, tapi kita mereasakan diri kita perlu "survive" dalam foundation.
Alhamdulillah, "survived" katanya.
Foundation dilalui dgn keputusan yang cukup cukup makan. Tidak terlalu tinggi, tidak terlalu rendah.
Yay, mulalah tahun pertama saya disini.
Minggu minggu pertama bukanlah seperti minggu pertama di sekolah rendah, menengah. Awal awal lagi dah kena belajar apa itu Ordinary Differential Equation(ODE), apakah itu Teori Litar (CT), Lukisan kejuruteraan (ED) tak juga Structured Programming(SPI,SPD).
Masih gagah utk berdiri, memahami apa yang kita perlu belajar sepanjang semester ini.
Bila result keluar, "ARGHHHHH"
"Aku tak faham langsung"
"Stress, soalan putar belit"
Lama kelamaan kita mula mempersoalkan diri kita..
"Apakah jalan yang aku ambil ini betul?"
Dulu aku cakap nak jadi seorang doktor, nak jadi seorang polis, guru.. tapi kenapa aku akhirnya tersangkut dalam bidang yang aku sendiri tidak tahu?
Dalam sibuk melayan realiti dunia, kita kadang kadang terlepas pandang terhadap perancangan masa depan kita. Bila rasa susahnya menuntut ilmu, mulalah terfikir nak keluar kursus, keluar universiti, merancang utk ulang semester.
Siapa yang perlu disalahkan?
Aku, kau, dia, mereka, kita?
Apa pun, masa berlalu tanpa berpatah balik sedikit pun.
Apa boleh buat dalam keadaan macam ni?
Ok, mari berdiskusi dan cari beberapa idea;
1. Keluar universiti dan bekerja?
2. Keluar kursus dan masuk kursus lain?
3. Rambo sahaja!
Adakah dengan keluar universiti dan terus bekerja kita boleh hidup dgn sikap kita malas dan tidak mahu berusaha sewaktu dalam semester pertama?
Adakah tukar kursus dengan kursus pilihan lain boleh menyelesaikan masalah?
Kita seakan-akan cuba lari dari masalah dan buat masalah lain.
Rambo saja! Ambil masa utk belajar balik, perbetulkan sikap kita, kejar balik silibus. Belum terlambat utk buat sesuatu, selagi belum gagal usahalah. Gagal bukan pilihan.
Secara umumnya, dunia belajar selepas sekolah bukanlah dunia sekadar petik jari sahaja semua boleh.
Dunia sekarang memerlukan kita utk memahami apa yang kita belajar, bukan sekadar suap masuk kepala dan muntah sewaktu exam. Itu boleh bentuk diri kita seorang fresh undegraduate yang tidak berkualiti. Malah mudah dilabel "tidak laku" di mata syarikat syarikat besar/membangun.
Tidak kiralah tukar kursus berapa byk, kalau diri takde minat dan usaha utk belajar memang sia-sialah.
Bila kita ada masalah nak belajar, kita cari akar masalah kita;
Cara belajar kita betul tak?
Pengurusan masa kita betul tak?
Faham tak apa yang kita cuba belajar?
Adakah pelajaran diutamakan?
Oh, aku pun tidaklah 100% buat apa yang aku cuba sampaikan. Tapi, buat atau tak, benda ni betul.
Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih kata orang tua.
Orang lain tak boleh tolong kita utk kejar masa depan melainkan hanyalah utk beri sokongan dan nasihat.
Ada masalah kongsi dan selesaikan bersama. Kawan ada, kaunselor bertauliah@tak bertauliah pun ada.
Tanyalah selagi boleh tanya.
Ehem, dkt atas tu semestinyalah. Dia dengar, dan dia akan makbulkan.
Al Mu'min, Ayat 60:
Maksudnya: "Dan berfirman Tuhanmu "Memohonlah (mendoalah) kepada-Ku, Aku pasti perkenankan permohonan (doa) mu itu."
Semestinya apa yang di beri tu adalah terbaik buat kita.
Jangan cepat putus harapan, jangan cepat berhenti.
Kita masih jauh lagi dari garisan penamat. Lari, Lari, Lari!!!
Jalan ke penamat itu sungguhlah lurus kenapa berjalan pusing sana pusing sini? :)
*heavily breathing*
"Shouldn't I stop fighting, pain is temporary, glory is forever" - slogan silat tempat aku lol
Keep running, grand prize awaits you.
Aku masih disini, menolak kawan kawan aku utk bergerak. Takkanlah aku seorang shj yg berjalan.
You have my very support.
-. - O.K, cukup berleter dan cakap seorang diri. Selamat merancang masa depan anda!
Buat junior, buat keputusan elok elok.
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| Lama tak post gambar, comel </3 hahahaha |
Life is full of mysteries.
Whenever you encounter a mystery, its either be a nightmare, or a sweet dream.
To have between these two, it comes with a 50-50 probability.
Unfortunately, in a range of 50, comes a probability of 25-25, constructive or destructive.
Life is so random isn't?
It just like you throw a dice, which mean having problems and happiness was this simple.
Despite it was that easy, we ourselves makes it even more complicated.
Just having crush on someone, you make yourself hates her/him.
Just having low grades, you make yourself stupider.
Just having hardships, you make yourself weaker.
Just having problems? Oh yeah, you create yourself having another problems.
And problem on top of problems would create a more negative thought in your mind.
Boom, you lost your identity as human.
Happiness also sometimes being a burden to a human.
It brought yourself into carelessness.
It brought yourself into arrogance.
See, again you lost your identity as human.
Of course, a riddle is a game that needs an answer.
But, you know.. there was no answer at all.
Because for one to improve him/herself, they need experience.
Never take destructive situation to make yourself depressed.
Never take constructive situation for granted.
And slowly, your life began to enter a new phase of life "A New Beginning"
Strike! Home run.
In much simpler words, you need to have faith in yourself, in Allah, and in everyone else that you trust.
Fight oki, fight!
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