"Being strong for long time." terkata seorang sahabat aku.
"My past keeps hunting over and over again" terkata hati aku.
"How do I being so strong" terkata minda aku
"Smile, is what makes you stronger" tertulis sendiri sahaja sahaja

Assalamualaikum.
Alhamdulillah, sudah raya rupanya. Salam aidil adha!
15/10/2013.

I am reminding you, future me :v
Sahaja hambar sangat malam ni so terasa nak tulis post yang hambar dgn bahasa yang hambar. ._.

Every time and space dalam kehidupan kita is what we call as a lesson.
Bangun tidur dan masih bernafas is a lesson. Allah masih bagi peluang utk beribadah.
Dapat merasa makanan yang lazat dan bernutrisi tinggi is a lesson. Ada rezeki utk membesar kuat dan hebat.
Masih dapat berfikir juga is a lesson. At least, with that you can think what's right, what's wrong.
Pernah fikir lesson remeh temeh ini?

Tapi kita alih ke satu scope yang common dan lebih mendalam lagi.
Aku, kau, dia, mereka, kami; satu kumpulan yg tak terlepas dari ujian yang maha Esa.

Ya betul, dalam apa yg kita lalui, hari hari kena uji.
Nak exam, kemalangan, kematian, kehilangan, dan positivenya kesenangan.

Pertamanya, dalam ujian yg kita lalui, bersyukurkah kita?
Keduanya, berapa kali kita merungut utk satu masalah yg kita lalui?
Ketiganya, kau ada masalah, kau ada cari penyelesaian?
Terakhirnya, dalam penyelesaian yang kita jumpa, ada kita muhasabah balik? :v

Oh my future self, kalau fikir balik nampak mcm sebijik from buku ilmu yang kita belajar dulu.
Tapi sesakai-sakai nya pun, RARELY i could see people doing this.
Bersyukur itu mungkin, but Muhasabah. Itu tidak pasti.

Belum pasti juga mereka yg kata "Oh, bestlah post awak!" akan ambil iktibar dan terus muhasabah dari titik mula mereka membaca post ini.

Hehe, I know I know. This past of yourself ni tidaklah baguih sangat. But aku tengah improve, improve, improve. Cuma, I failed a lot. I was hoping the other future me would never give up too and be better than me.

Oh, I might be sending special notes for you to some of your friends too. Dah baca? :v
Eh.

Back to the topic,
So life somehow people sees at a certain time "frustrating" "burdening" etc.
Bila putus or clash dgn "be" "f", keeps under the same loop. Post apa-apa lah yg "frustrating". **if you know what i mean. :)
Bila gagal, "aku tak pndai, tak patut kawan dgn kau" :v *....
Bila susah dan terus susah, "I shouldn't born" "Aku selalu kena uji" *...wow

But secara vice versa?
Bila kaya, "Mari mari aku belanja, parent aku kasi visa utk aku perabih duit utk hampa semua" *hehe
Bila pandai, "Mari aku ajar kau, kau boleh, kau boleh punya!" *he he he.
Bila ada cough cough, "..." *censored. what I mean is post itu sakai :v maybe syukur sangat.
Bila senang, "Alhamdulillah dgn apa yg Allah beri, mari, mari aku nak kongsi kegembiraan ini".

If lah, if and only if you take the negative part of life into the positive part.
You got problems you should share with whom you trust *except me :v idk why.
You doing things by your owh lah you should start asking for some ask *except something you don't have to la
You putus or something or whatever lah you start saying "Dia bukan jodoh aku, okay full stop mari belajar dan berjaya yeah yeah!" *:p hehehehehehe
You failed over and over again lah you should keep moving on! YOU CAN DO IT YEAHH :p

Mindset itu penting.
Its what makes you standing stronger.
Bila gagal kita mindset, muhasabah. gitu :p

I do really hope that, you are getting stronger and better now myself. :p
"Belum terlambat utk bertaubat/berubah" kata orang, kata diri sndiri dulu.

The end of this. Maaf ye diri sndiri sbb sakai and straight to the point but berlapik satu lapis tisu :v
I just got few ideas to write about this after few things happened and tried to kupas those few statements in the introduction.
I believe I had been strong because I'm writing this.
I believe My past keeps hunting me for something beneficial like this.
I believe How do I be strong is because I'm thinking to write this for you future self :v
I believe.. that I Smile not for nothing, because I'm getting even stronger! :)

3, 2, 1.
:v okay, itu sahaja. All the best in the future. :p
May Allah bless you and assist you in every good deeds you do.

Assalamualaikum.
2.32AM, 15/10/2013.
18 years old.
Standing stronger.