Assalamualaikum wbt.
Its been a while since I left this world. I mean blogger lah :v
Hahaha. Terlampau sibuk dgn urusan yg banyak and pertarungan dgn bayang sendiri yg tidak pernah putus.
So, pagi subuh or something aku dapat message wechat from a friend of mine :v
And frankly I was moved to write this post. Heh, semalam mana boleh tidur. Tidur atas tikar kayu, berbantalkan bantal peluk shj. lol :v
What did she said?
I quoted some so tak perlu lah aku share semua :p
"Friendship is like a book. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write."
Yeah, takes seconds to burn, but takes years to write. Ikutkan it feels like I had burn too many books if you really know what I mean. And rarely writes them. Probably I'm not a good friend, though.
Sometimes I put a gap called "awkwardness" in the book. That's what makes a distance between a friend and a friend. Frankly, I don't know how to socialize with them. I just listen and response. Bkn komedian pun nak bagi mereka ketawa. I was born with philosophy, not act of laughs. Jokes anyway. But I tried my best utk jadi kawan yg baik. Ready to listen everything you want to share, and ready to spare a bunch of time with them tak kesah lah ketika itu aku tak habis baca kitab "Chemistry II" or "Sejarah" in last SPM.
But in the end, it was all gone. Gone with the feelings and happiness. I don't know. :v
So, another quote.
"Old friends are gold. New friends are diamonds. If you get a diamond, don't forget the gold because to hold a diamond, you always need a base of gold."
Haha. Topik blog kali ini lah :v
Old friends are gold.
New friends are diamonds.
Silver?
Silver is somewhat we called as the lowest between diamonds and golds.
So, what type of friend is silver?
Boleh kata silver ni something not so important la berbanding yg lain.
Tambah sikit, copper.
People who somewhat tak dikenali, and suddenly appear in our life. Hahaha :v
"Kalau dah dapat diamond, jgn lupa gold sbb nak pegang diamond, kita mesti perlukan asas gold"
At first, aku tak paham sgt what she trying to say, so I tried to translate them in what I seen through it.
Opps, kantoi lah org ni perempuan :v
Why do you need gold to hold a diamond. Hmm.
Kita bagi satu analogi, or probably from my experience lah.
Kita dah masuk U, bila masuk U mesti kita cari kawan lama kita. Like for me, I went to UTP. So who the first I will be searching for? Jarang sekali kawan baru, I would find my beloved roommate, Ekrahm :p
Until a time, I will find a new friend bila dah biasa duduk dkt environment baru tu. In conclusion, i could say that I need old friends to have a new friends.
Another analogy lah,
If anything happens you and your diamonds. Siapa kita cari dulu? *this case, parents-related are exception*
So, kalau aku, aku cari kawan lama yg aku dah bagi dan dapat kepercayaan dari dia. That's why you need a base of gold to hold a diamond.
Maybe ada yg boleh translate quote ni boleh lah bgtau aku :p
I just see things differently. Oh orang tu msti baca, tlg translate :v
2 quotes jelah yg aku nak tekankan.
So, to the life-based situation. I had an outnumbered friends I had made during the past years. Dulu, aku fikir dunia ni akan lebih baik dgn kawan. So, I made friends, continuously without a stop. But it doesn't make a difference in my life. Why is that so?
Probably I wasn't sincere enough with what I do with them. Probably,
I wasn't a good friends and without realizing it I stabbed one of them. Bila dah terkena baru nak tergadah :v
Sorry then. I took time to realize. >. <
Panjang sangat post aku ni. Let me bungkus everything.
Cough cough. So what I want to say is..
To a friend that I had been friend together in previous school, tapi skrg ni mcm tak rapat. I'm sorry, I couldn't find a spare time utk tegur kau. I was too busy to hold both diamonds and golds together. Dua-dua berat. But I gladly appreciate that you poked me a while and I tried my best to listen to you :)
To a friend yg percaya aku, but somewhat their trust to me getting crack and nak pecah. I'm sorry, because maybe I didn't realize yang aku buat something that hurt you so much. Kadang-kadang aku nak gurau, unfortunately it hurts you a lot. Don't trust me again, I'm somewhat dangerous to you! Hahaha :p
To a friend yg selalu share masalah dia, and always having their problems unsolved. I'm sorry. I don't even have power to solve your problem and to change your fate. What I actually do is I listen to make you let what's inside you keluar and to make you feel even better. And I give suggestion, bukan a way because I want you to decide your own path. Between me and yourself, keputusan kau lebih baik dgn guide Dia.
Have faith, never stops trying. This world is just an experiment :p
To a friend, yg somewhat rindu dgn aku. *eh, kejap. yeke ni? hahahaha. mcm tkde je*
I'm sorry, because lately kau tegur aku selalu! To know what problems I had, what life am I having. And aku mcm balas dan tak balas. Honestly, I'm proud that you have your concern with me. Ingatkan takde siapa yg nak ambil tahu pasal aku. Tsk. Hahaha jokes. But in later times, we gonna meet again with my IR title and your title. tak kesahlah prof ke ckgu ke apa ke :p
To a friend yg somehow I had crush on them. Er, how to put this. Don't you even realize this awkwardness? Maybe aku seorang je kot. We promised to stay as friends but it feels nothing changed so far. Yeah, I'm sorry obviously for acting this stupid. I almost or I broke our bond already. So sorry. I don't know how to respond, I don't even know how to be friend to suit that interest of yours. Aku suka anime and games, but somewhat you didn't. And I didn't even have any jokes mcm orang lain boleh buat kau suka dan tertawa. It feels so terrible. Again, I'm sorry. This awkwardness distance ourselves and in the end. Dua-dua pihak don't even care until one of it buat perangai. I mean "tweet" something smpai terasa. <-- that me rasanya ._.
Thanks for being a good friend. But please never pretend. I hate people who pretends to care like "Weh, i had read your post and i'm really sorry" but in the end nothing change. You can pick any route you want. Away or make up. I'm fine with both that but better with make up :p
To a friend er, apa lagi. To a friend yg tak suka aku. Kejap, ini kawan ke? Hahaha. whatever.
Just that sorry if I make you felt so angry with me. Aku yakin kau tak jealous, cuma marah dgn tindakan aku je. Kau je perfect, i know, i know. Now you can live in peace, jangan ambil kesah pasal aku. I got my own life and you also had life to think of it. Thanks for being such a great grand friends to me, nmpak lah kasihan kau dkt aku. Hehe, terbaiklah kawan! :)
To a friend, or junior or senior. Just thanks for your advice and care. I'm sorry I couldn't help as much as you helped me during my bad day. I hope you will survive until you get what you aim for. Tidak kesahlah brapa byk aim yg ada hahaha. Thanks, thanks and thanks :') Til we meet again, and again.
To a friend, in which I had promised "Let's be best friends". Sorry, sorry and sorry. In the end, I'm somewhat who looks didn't even care about you while you so struggle to care about me. Apalah aku ni, kata tak kenal action ._. Sorry kawan. Don't trust what promise I'm going to make. I'm terrible :/
Just that, thank you. We still friends and tegur each other. Way the go! :p
To a friend, yg aku kenal from internet. Tidak pernah berjumpa, tak pernah on the phone(otp), tak pernah apa-apa lah. But somewhat you guys tried to rapatkan distance yg ada like inviting me to here and there and even find time bila bosan to chat with me. Thank you, and sorry sbb I couldn't be that great-great friends. InshaAllah, kalau ada jodoh we will meet. Just, kawan tetap kawan. As long as we kawan. Its fine! :)
To a friend, yg aku selalu share masalah dia. Thank you. We had a good time though. You guys really helped me a lot with my crush case and study case. Dorongan kau mmg aku appreciate sangat. Ingat lagi ada kawan aku yg nampak aku sedih terus wechat suara dia hahaha :p
Ada jugak kawan bila aku share masalah dia, she will give lah hadis dan janji Allah yg buatkan I feel even better now. Weh, aku simpan lagi kot all your advices.
Oh, ada jugak my friend yg always stand together with me to very end. Until we graduated, we stay stands each other to do something. Thanks bro, thanks sangat-sangat.
And finally, my friend. A special friend. Yg boleh kata lah kuat gila tahan dgn perangai aku yg suka menggedik pasal crush, and brag something nonsense. Selalu gaduh, selalu sangat. But though people saying that kita ni sweet. No offense, its not gay -, -"
Thanks sangat-sangat sbb you have your own way to treat me. Cari masa utk keluar JJ dgn aku :') wiwi hahaha. And I hope, we stay friends until very end. Oh, jadi pengapit eh? :p
That's all. *Closes book*
Assalamualaikum. Thank you! :)
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